Halloween

Happy Halloween!

Whatever that is.

Complement

complement \KOM-pluh-muhnt\, noun:
1. Something that fills up or completes.
2. The quantity or number required to make up a whole or to make something complete.
3. One of two parts that complete a whole or mutually complete each other; a counterpart.

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new layout coming...

Revolution

Thank you whoever made the TP website MOZILLA FIREFOX COMPATIBLE.

You rock.

Slipping away..

I'm slippin' away
In every way
I can't stay (and I don't know why) awake
I'm slippin' (and I don't know why) away

But tryin' to make it through each day
I'm fallin apart now in every way
I'm findin' it harder to get by
Theres a hole in my heart
And, I dont know why
Now I've come to realize

I'm slippin' away

Somewhere out there

Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There

Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.

Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the red orange glow,
watch them float away.

Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.

Turn on the radio,
to find you on satellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.

All we are is all so far....

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.

I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails I wait.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.

I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me.

Well I know,
I know.

You're falling out of reach.

I know...

Morning Calls...

Im lazy to blog about the chalet, but once i get some pictures, i'll post em.

Past 3 days have been good, its been a long time since i've slacked so much.... tiring chalet, but it was fun. Hanged out alot with friends, singing mad songs late late at night :)

Im in the middle of shifting my TV into my room, I want to play Grand Theft Auto : San Andreas and surf the net at the same time.. ultimate insanity. I might go and buy Soul Caliber 2 The English Version to play today... :)

back

Chalet was fun :). Had nice interesting chats and conversations and had lots of fun.

Time to sleep now......

HeeHeeHee

Ok bye. Leaving till thursday.

Chalet!

Must pack now. Now. Now. Now. Don't care who's going, don't care whats going to happen, just want to have fun.

*starts packing bag*

Goob.

Say hello to my new mascot.

A place for my head....

Going out with parents later to watch some.. esplanade concert thingy. I'll post here about what its about later.

I'm bored. heeeeeeeeeeheheeeeheeeeee.

Maybe i'll go make a new layout. Or..Maybe not :)

the new.

simple plan album sucks. only like. 2 nice songs. the rest all filler songs. urg.

Rush

Yesterday night was fun.... drank alot, more than usual :) cant wait to go clubbing again. Most probably wednesday. :)

It was interesting, i guess. There were ups and downs... sitting by the sea looking out enjoying the breeze, thinking... that rocked. Then i saw something i didnt want to see :)

I enjoyed her company...i guess. I feel kinda two-faced.. im talking to him and all, but then truthfully alot of us would want to punch his face out. But of course, we dont need so much drama.

Well it was fun. i slept from 9am till now, kinda blur right now. I wonder what are everyone's results.. must ask them later.

Downloaded most of the stuff on the previous post. The simple plan album.. listening to it later...

Do you ever....

Currently Downloading :
5 Episodes of Naruto
Simple Plan - We're still not getting (unreleased new album)
The new survivor episode
Grand Theft Auto : San Andreas

Yep i decided to go to the party after all. I STILL have no clue what to wear though. Haha. Gonna go bathe now. Looking at this post, i think tomorrow the police will come over to my house to arrest me for extreme piracy.

nahhhhhhhhhh. :)

Fight on for you...

Yes my loyal fans. I'm still alive.

Download Gift's and Curses for Yellowcard.

It rocks. Download it.

Anyways, had an interesting day yesterday. Went to school in the morning to hang around and give a friend *cough*eugene*cough* the sims 2. After that went and hung around with a few DSC peeps, freddy, stanley and si yuan... talked quite abit, stoned, talk about the halloween party on friday... what to wear and stuff. I still dont know... so i'll have to look around later... :)

Then after that went out to eat, hang around TM and all. was pretty fun. Saw quite alot of stuff to buy. Went to eat Gelare waffles after that, and my god, it was nice. Gonna go eat again sometime when i get the cravings.

Brought sharon to work after hanging around this fashion for too long watching dana pick clothes -.-". Ate prata at her workplace since there was extra time... saw wei shan... again :)

Then i decided to come back and pick them up for work at 930. Gave them cd's. Gave wei shan Disney's Magic (sadly only one disc -.-) and then sharon one episode of bleach. Lol.

Wore my new hoody from Splitreason.com after it arrived yesterday. It rocks. i love it. Haha.

Went with sharon to eat at geylang... they had this hari raya street festival thingy, its like an uber big pasar malam. Lol. Had so many things to eat we couldnt choose. Then we saw like this otah stall and like so many people queueing for it. So we decided to queue too. Typical singporean. Lol. But then like after standing there for 15 minutes we decided it was too late and we just left after buying drinks. She bought sweet corn though. It was niceeeeeeee.

Stoned on the way back. There were alot of weird people on the bus. Shall not talk about it. Haha. After coming back home, kinda got scolded by my parents at 1am++. Like. Really argued with my parents even though its my fault for using their credit card too much. Oh well. Don't use lor. It's not like its never going to expire. It expires this month...sheesh.

Probably going out later to play drums. PS...

Gifts and Curses

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before, I was sure?

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(She is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), the villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say.
Still I will always fight on for you.
Fight on for you...
Fight on for you...

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Loreal Architect Wax is my new friend.

Funny

Woke up
Brush Teeth
Check RO
Sleep some more
Usual sunday routine
Found out it was my Grandmother's Birthday
Went out late evening to Northpoint
Shop till i died
Got a new rockin top
Got new rockin pants
Got... nth much else.
Went home
Chatted
Died
Slept.

Horny

Yep.

Dosed.

Ok. This will probably be a long post so if you're busy or something, you'll probably just want to skim through it or something.

Actually i dont know why im posting either. I guess i needed to take time out to. Talk. To myself. Recently i've found out i dont really have a problem with myself, i've been having problems with other people and how they react to me. Or something like that. I dont know. Yup. I don't know. I'll probably use this phrase very often sooner or later, because, really, i dont know. I dont know whats going on around me, whats happening to everyone out there, to people whom i've known so long ago but are so different now. I guess it cant be helped. Change is inevitable. Its always there. People change for a reason.... sometimes good, sometimes bad.

It probably comes with age. This is the thing your Moral Education textbooks have been warning you about. Coming of age, accepting yourself, after puberty and all that bullshit.

Am i satisfied with myself? Maybe. Not really. I wish i could fill the empty void spaces in my life now. I dont know what are these spaces though.

And then theres love. I dont wanna talk about it that much right now. I'm as confused as everyone else is.

Ok. Maybe i shouldnt blog so long. Im getting lazy. =) Sleep now. Nites.

The Calling.

Went around AMK today, window shopping and stuff, stopped by the arcade to play drums.. SOOO many people were watching me today, scary.

Then walked up and down shops to look at stuff to buy. Saw nice clothes and pants, then realised i shouldnt spend all my money today.

Walked and passed by this pirated game shop. OMG they sold PC + PS2 Pirated games! That's extremely rare now. Bought Burnout 3, Silent hill 4 and Tony Hawk''s Underground 2. Nice.

I feel like buying some PC games soon. I better get it soon before the shop gets raided by the police. Which, will be soon.

Boring day. Eating fried rice now. I'm finally going to turn into an assassin in RO later. Very good.

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The Calling - Wherever you will go (Listen or die)

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

Wind

Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

You say, "Dreams are dreams.
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.

You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

eee vee eee ell

meeting tomorrow... went out today with cousin, talked abit trying to catch up with her life. after that went to play drums... again -.-.

went to eat, then went back again.. wanted to go swimming, but sadly, im too lazy to do it.

leveling my ro characters now... =)

Lazy to blog.

Lazy to think. Lazy to answer. Lazy to kill.

Puddle of Mudd - Blurry

Great song... great lyrics.
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Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway

This pain you gave to me

You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me

tear my heart open...

long long day today. went out and did alot of crap today, ate lots, swensens, saw ronald and priscillia at swensens, saw alot of people outside today.

its a tiring day today, but it was worthwhile. i think.

escape..

boring day. going out tmr...

had nice long discussions about relationships today on msn with christine. she seems to be having problems with her guy friend and they dont know if their together or not. saded. just get together la, i mean, if he doesnt want to commit, leave the freaking guy.

ok back to listening to my disney cd =D

The time of your life...

Long day. Went to school for DSL meeting.... sms-ed sharon in the morning, didnt expect a reply, but i got one. She was going after all -.-. She told me she was buying mac there so i told her to get food for me to eat. Brought piggy along.

On the bus was stoning and watching TV Mobile. Reached school, went for meeting, lots of talk, then i realised something strange. I cant blog about it here though. Just that someone has been looking and talking to me weirdly lately, and its becoming abit weird.

After that went out with Wei Shan to collect her passport, we had to sit down there and wait and stuff. Pretty interesting. We were on the train before that when one by one everyone started leaving to see their GF's. Si Yuan, then Xing Jie.

After that we got to Bugis, then went to pay for the movie tickets, we were watching exorcist, the beginning. More on that later. Funny thing was both our HP's ran out of batt, so we had to like use payphone to call Sharon.

We all met after that and was about to start watching the show, then freddy came in. Nice. Super abrupt, but its alright. =).

The show was horrible. It was freaking disgusting but quite cool. Theres not really a story plot behind it, just, very satanic. Very.

After that left to eat dinner at the food court and then we went swindow shopping, pretty interesting events started to happen...Shall not talk about them here.

Which leads me to the night, where more stuff happened online.

I want to sleep, tiring day. Ripping Sharon's CD now, its nice and sappy music :)

Black Party

Before today's post..



Yup. I might make another version of this layout with a more elaborate design on the left. The one now is abit plain. Maybe. Who knows.

Boring day. Pretty much standard up sunday. Wake up, help out at church, go home, eat lunch with family, go online, do whatever rubbish i have to do online, bathe, listen to good music, then sleep.

Yup. Being online though was interesting. Talked to 3 new people today. Had nice chats.

Im typing this in the dark tonight. Spoiling my eyes. Spilt shampoo into my eyes in the shower today, hurt like fuck. Had to wash it out after that. Funny though, there was like foam coming out of my eyes. Freakin scary.

Tomorrow theres going to be a DSL meeting, gonna be interesting.

Dashboard Confessional - This Ruined Puzzle
This ruined puzzle is beige with the pieces all face down
so the placing goes slowly.
The pictures of anything other than it's meant to be.
But the hours they creep,
the patterns repeat.
Don't be concerned, you know I'll be fine on my own.
I never said "don't go".

I've written a note,
it's pressed between pages
that you've marked to find your way back.
It says "Does he ever get the girl?"
But what if the pages stay pressed,
the chapters unfinished,
the stories too dull to unfold?
Does he ever get the girl?

This basement's a coffin
I'm buried alive.
I'll die in here just to be safe.
I'll die in here just to be safe.
'Cause you're gone
I get nothing
and you're off with barely a sigh.
I never said Goodbye...

Does he ever get the girl?

The Middle

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head
You feel left out or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away

It just takes some time, little girl
You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own
So don't buy in, live right now
Yeah, just be yourself
It doesn't matter if that's good enough for someone else

It just takes some time, little girl
You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

It just takes some time, little girl
You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head
You feel left out or looked down on
Just do your best, do everything you can
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say

It just takes some time, little girl
You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

It just takes some time, little girl
You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

back up... but for how long?

Yep. It might go down any moment now. Lol. at least its up now for me to blog.

Something tells me the computer is being turned on and off every other day, the person using it doesnt realise its a server. Stupid.

Woke up today and downloaded alot of crap. Bleach the Anime Rocks. Also downloading MyHime right now... its a short anime (13 episodes) so it should be ok.



Went out to print the flyer's for the church annual DND '04. Went to Peace center beside dhoby ghaut to print... suprising its cheap and easy to print large images. Im going there to print my images next time.

Then Jac realises her CD cant be read, so she went ALL the way back to AMK (we stay at the same block) to reburn and print! Damn thats gotta suck. Jacyln btw is year 2 IAD :)

Then after awhile saw Mer and Maria. After printing i had to stay back with them and cut the tickets. Who knew cutting tickets could be so fun. Using that paper cutter thing and snip snip.

Then went to play pool with a couple of them. Then we ate fish and co. Now im fucking broke. i need cash soon. I think i know where to get... not going to bother my parents :)

Passing by the bus stop and on the way home, an Apple guy (the mac people) came up to me and gave me a box. At first i was like, cool, maybe theres something cool inside. Then i realised on the side it says "Byte into an Apple". Opened it and there was a real apple inside and a booklet on why you should change to a mac. Good marketing. Lame idea. XD.

Ok thats it for today. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day, monday too. Need foooooooooooood.

Oh yeah, i bought a pig for sharon. =D

Hyper

If im forced to wear a costume to Afterdark 2004, im NOT going.

Ok i'll be going. But what the hell are you going to dress up as? A Poring?

I'm going naked. HAHA. No im kidding.

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Yellowcard - Cigarette

Watching the days burning out like a cigarette,
Just a few drags to go.
You built me up
And you broke me down,
Somehow.

Everything just seemed so clear to me
Nothing left to know.
I'll love you right and I'll love you pure,
Right now.

How can you say,
That it's too late
To save us now

And I would wait for you, ooh
If you would wait for me, yeah.
I will wait for you, ooh
if you will wait for me, yeah.

Intoxicated the edge is serrated,
So easily torn from the core.
I blushed the first time,
But you blushed the last time
My eyes hit your mind
Regenerated these feelings of hatred,
I long for your love evermore
You built me up and you broke me down
This time.

And I would wait for you, ooh
If you would wait for me, yeah.
I will wait for you, ooh
if you will wait for me, yeah.

How can you say,
That its too late
To save us now?
(How can you say)

yeah.

my blogs up again. thanks to whoever fixed it.

i heard it was up last night. thanks anyone who tried to .... er check it.

i went picture snapping lately. ok i didnt. just took pictures around my room. still, they ended up not bad.





going out tomorrow for a job interview. hope it turns out alright.

open your eyes

I dont know. I was surfing through friendster just now and it was really shocking. People change. Alot. From like super conservative and holy to super.. not holy. Its just weird. Have i changed alot? Yeah. Do i feel suprised? Abit. Why do we change? I dont know. Surroundings, people, events, everything we do just affect us in one way or another.

Enough about me. Life is a weird and stinky thing. It can make you sad, or happy, angry, or deluded.

But one thing is certain. It will change. You cant do shit about it. All you can do is sit and wander into the future. Things will happen. Just wait and see. But memories are forever.

---
Lately,
I'm not quite myself.
Maybe,
I do need some help.
Just my confusion,
Trust my delusion.

Don't you,
Regret you met me.
Go through,
These steps to get me,
Back to where we start,
'Fore I fall apart.

If I could black out,
It'd become so clear,
Standing face-to-face with everything I fear.
Watch so closely,
but still I don't see.
As bad as it seems,
a piece of mind I steal,
An ordinary life,
But consequences real.
I'm past the point of reality.

This isn't me,
This isn't you,
When it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.

It's like a bad dream,
Coming all so true,
Leaving me with nothing else left to do.
Now so helpless,
I'm not so selfish.
Tell me,
How does it feel to have a face like that,
How does it feel to be replaced like that.
Now so faceless,
Do you still feel?

This isn't me,
This isn't you,
When it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.

It's hard to believe right now,
This seems to be real.
Still phasing by this time,
So why can't I wake up.

This isn't me,
This isn't you,
When it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,

Mooooooozic.

Albums to buy:
The Used - In Love and Death

Jay Chou - Qi Li Xiang

Sum 41 - Chuck (they sound totally different than before. now they sound like the used. no kidding.)

Green Day - American Idiot


and yes. i buy albums :D. all the immature punk rock bands like sum 41, yellowcard, finch and blink 182 seem to be growing up along with their audience. which is good.

sitefeed

just to let you guys know i've added a sitefeed to the site. which means if you're using Mozilla Firefox, when you load my site you'll see a small icon at the bottom right hand corner of the browser. Clicking on it allows you to subscribe and then be able to see my blog posts without checking the site. makes it easier to see if theres a new post or not :D

i like.....

you.




heh...sigh.

Reformat

Just spent last night and today reformating my computer. Its amazing how much a reformat can pretty much speed up everything. All the junk that has been collected in this com for the past one or two years was really starting to take its toll on the hardware.

Now i download files at super fast speeds. Never used to be able to go over 100kb/s, just now i tried downloading a few files, the speed was insane.

Windows also open faster :D. Now to maintain this speed.

maybe...

I feel good tonight. Dont know why i just do. Maybe its the caramel coated popcorn. Maybe its the cool air against my face. Maybe its the lack of worries. Maybe its dreaming of money...maybe its the ice cream... maybe its because i helped alot of people today. maybe because my hair is growing longer. maybe because...er... mabye its cause im full.

or... maybe not :D

Ok now i just feel really guilty.








I want you so bad, but i cant, and i'd probably....just want to see you smile....

both

its reviting really... both ex-es messaged me online talking and asking me questions and asking me to help out with their lives... is this a sign?

its not my fault they know im logical and know them the best... but its not helping when my own life is kinda in shambles. well, kinda. its getting better XD.

beep beep. beep beep.(hp message tone.) k then. =)

bleah.

Bored. School Ended. Playing RO again with Sharon. Going for job interview. Want to go out and watch a movie. Bored. Bored. Bored.

Entertain me :D. I'll post more tomorrow.

Draft

I'm melting in your eyes....

Done

Its done.... my first semester at TP DES is complete! Just finished my last project, and the one i worked the longest one and the most taxing. haha.

Time to enjoy myself tomorrow! Probably go somewhere with friends, coming home late, playing games, the sort. :)

I've kinda been clarified over the week. Things started becoming clearer to me, and i've began thinking clearly. Less confused as they say. But my stance hasnt changed. I still....

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Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty and
Everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doin'
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
And you could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doin'
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Oh, nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you where to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you where to run away


Take it all away
Take it all away
Pain ya gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me