Smoking is bad folks.

Everytime you smoke,
A kitten somewhere dies.

Stop smoking.

Snapshots

Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world's more full of weeping than you
can understand.

Scream my lungs out

*cuddles bolster*

ABC.

Something to ponder about.

A
B
C

A= Activating Activity
B= Belief System
C= Consequence

A will affect B which in turn will affect C. A will never change, but C is directly affected because of how B reacts to A.

(i.e : if you believe that it is bad, the consequence will be bad)

Therefore sometimes its better to change B so that C wont be as bad, even though A will not change. Situations never change per se, but if the consequences of that activity are less severe because of B, then all the more better :P

Wah lao eh, not another confusing equation.

Quiz

http://tinyurl.com/67buf

Things

Things to do today:

Read old archives of old blogs
Clean up room. Ultimate pack up. Gonna make it look like its NOT my room. Super neat.
Go bang on some drums and create tunes for the dying arcade. Relieve stress.
Go shoot some imaginary terrorists on screen with a badass SMG. Relieve more stress!
Go eat some nice banana muffins at delifrance (you know their good. stop lying to yourself! :P:P)
Go take some nice shots. Who wanna follow me? Anyone free? CALL OR SMS ME IM BOREDED
Maybe Draw. Think so.
Read "The stolen child"
Donate $5 to charity today because i felt like i need to, i've been a bastard lately.
Go jogging at bishan park. Its time to start training!

Hmmm. actually there are many things i can do! Heh. Feeling better now. ttfn.

er..

six?

Ok now...

Can someone please buy me a new developing tank? Please? Heh.

Now i know why i need someone to hug and love. I hate loneliness. Haha. I absolutely hate it. Hate it to hell. But then again, sometimes everyone needs to go against the odds and be lonely to truely appreciate themselves right? haha.

I shall not be stupid anymore. My heart tells me to wait and put myself in everyone else's shoes... and thats what im going to do. What happened to the guy u once used to see... i do not know either. If nobody wants to remain friends with me... i really cant stop them... maybe everyone was correct. maybe i am a bastard. hmm.

Why does my computer keep crashing for no reason? -kicks-

True

Ryan Cabrera - True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

Je sais quand je vais...
Je serai sur mon chemin vers vous.
Seulement quand vous avez truely perdu quelque chose volonté vous appréciez ce que vous avez espéré effectuer.

Je serai normal.
Je ne vous irriterai pas, ou forcez-vous à me blesser encore.
Je serai, I.

Tristement.

N'oubliez pas moi, mais la demande de moi.



J'ai manqué les jours où vous...

Insanity

Madness has landed onto everyone the night before subject selection. Everyone's mad, hyper, or hyperventilating.

Had a long day today. Went out early in the morning to PS to find Christine and the rest. Christine was around spotlight looking for her stuff. She told me to go look for memory wire for her.

Memory wire?
Mammary wire?
Manory wire? wtf?

WTF la. I was blur. So i just went to the counter and said Memory wire. The woman gave me a blank stare and told me we no have. I asked another woman. Same thing.

o.o

Yeah thats basically the look. Complete with glasses. Yup.

Anyway after that we went to get the tickets, then the woman who was selling me tickets had hilarious pronounciation.

"So.. Floor tickay four Sall Wee Lance ok?"

"Orh. Yes."

"Senter Low Okay?"

"Er, yeah sure."

Stuffed it in my wallet tight, then went to look for stuff to do while waiting for Xiao Hui to come. She was going to arrive really late today. Or so christine said.

So we went around the arcade looking for stuff to do. Played a little GS. Then went up to catch the movie after that. Yes i know im being very general in this blog but its late and im tired :)

Ok er... the movie was great. Nice touching story. Then we had KFC where another stupid discussion cropped up about.. weird stuff.

They chased me away to school where i went for a stupid 5 minute lecture. It was stupid.

K done for tonight. Tomorrow more.

meh

Havent blogged in awhile, shall blog later after im done with all this. :D

Then it takes a simple girl...

This ruined puzzle is beige with the pieces all face down
so the placing goes slowly.
The pictures of anything other than it's meant to be
But the hours they creep
the patterns repeat
Don't be concerned you know I'll be fine on my own
I never said don't go

But I've hidden a note
it's pressed between pages
that you've marked to find your way back
It says "Does he ever get the girl?"
But what if the pages stay pressed
the chapters unfinished
the stories too dull to unfold
Does he ever get the girl?

This basement's a coffin
I'm buried alive
I'll die in here just to be safe
I'll die in here just to be safe
'Cause you're gone
I get nothing
and you're off with barely a sigh
I never said Good-bye

But I've hidden a note
it's pressed between pages
that you've marked to find your way back
It says "Does he ever get the girl?"
But I've hidden a note
it's pressed between pages
that you'll read if you're so inclined
Does he ever get the girl?

But the hours they creep
the patterns repeat
don't be concerned, you know I'll be fine on my own.
I never said don't go
Does he ever get the girl?

Melt

I dunno what to blog.

Long day. Just feel like sleeping. [=

MOCHAY

I'm planning something so stupid, only Abel can think up of it.

Glock

Dum dum dum dumm... dum.

dumndadum.

into

I'm afraid to open my mouth...

I'm afraid to make people sad.

I'm afraid to make people worried..

Or pissed.

Maybe, the old silent abel works best. Maybe.

Why do i miss you so much?

If only i knew...

I'm waiting
For the perfect time to call you back
Cos' I remember saying
Don't wanna know the truth
Can't handle that

And I try to
Just forget you
But don't know how
If only I knew

It's written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now where do we go?
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care?
Maybe I could meet you there

Yeah
I'm sorry
If I slagged you down, I meant no harm
When I heard the stories
Said things I didn't mean
Should have stayed calm

Sadly
Got angry
And it breaks my heart
You're so mad at me

It's written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now where do we go?
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care?
Maybe I could meet you there

Bunny Suicides.

Bunny Suicides

Exeem

Quoted from somewhere.


eXeem .20 public beta has been released!

"eXeem is a brand new Peer-To-Peer program, which is based on the BitTorrent idea, but does not use torrents. eXeem eliminates the need for trackers as nodes in the program will be taking their role. eXeem also features easy publication of files to the network as well as a rating and comments system. eXeem contains NO SPYWARE. eXeem is free and is ad-supported. eXeem is currently still in its beta testing phase, which means that the network might not be completely stable yet."

This is the suprnova replacement you've all been looking for. Enjoy.

Ok..i've downloaded it, and it works really well. If you're looking for full albums and all that, this one works really well. Don't come looking for me when you get sued though. The good thing about this is that it works like suprnova. Theres a section called new files where you can go and refresh and see the latest files being shared now and all that. Really interesting.

Untitled

Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you, so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Softly, Deftly..

Close your eyes -
For your eyes will only tell the truth
And the truth isnt what you want to see
In the dark, is it easy to pretend
That the truth is it ought to be

Softly, deftly, Music shall caress you
Hear it, feel it, secretly possess you
Open up your mind, Let your fantasies unwind
In this Darkness which you know you cannot fight,
The Darkness of the Music of the Night.

Close your eyes -
Start a journey through a strange new World! leave all thoughts of the world you Knew before, close you eyes and let music Set you free, only then can you belong to Me.

Floating, falling, Sweet Intoxication
Touch me, trust me, savor each Sensation
Let the dream begin, Let your darker side give in
To the Power of the music that I write,
The Power of the Music of the Night..

You alone can make my song take flight, Help me make the music of the night..

Take me out.

Franz Ferdinand - Take me out

So if you're lonely
You know I'm here
Waiting for you
I'm just a cross-hair
Just a shot away from you
If you leave here
You leave me broken
Shattered I lie
We're just a cross-hair
Just a shot then we can die
I know I won't be leaving here
With you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say take me out

I say you don't know
Don't move time is slow
I say take me out

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say take me out

If I move this could die
If eyes move this could die
I want you to take me out

I know I wont be leaving here
With you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say take me out

If I wait this could die
Is I wane this could die
I want you to take me out

If I move this could die
If eyes move this could die
Come on
Take me out

I know I won't be leaving here
With you

Fun for one

Went around taking pics today with my phone cam. Lousy quality, but alright, i guess. :D


My Comdi Box. And yes, those are condoms.


My flat. Thats the moon up in the sky.

Somewhere out there

After a long bout of busy-ness and work, things seem to have calm down quite abit.

Comdi is finally done. Ended up not bad. Lecturer liked it a fair bit.

Life has taken a half step back.

Staring, waiting, watching, questioning.

Has everyone become blind?

Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space

Laying underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling great
Watch the red orange glow
Watch it float away

Down here in the atmosphere
Garbage and city lights
Gonna save you're tired soul
You're gonna save our lives
Turn on the radio to
Find you in satellite
I'm waiting for the sky to fall
I'm waiting for a sign

And all we are
Is all so far

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see
I know you're out there somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

Hope you remember me
When you're homesick and need a change
I miss you're purple hair
I miss the way you taste
I know you'll come back some day
On a bed of nails I wait
I'm praying that you don't burn out
Or fade away

And all we are
Is all so far

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see
I know you're out there somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see
I know you're out there

You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see
I know you're out there somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me
I know, I know

You're falling out of reach
I know

There's a time and place, for everything.
There's a reason why, certain people meet.
There's a destination, for everyone.
What's the explanation, when we're done?

All the summer nights spent wondering;
So many questions asked, but no one's answering.
Would it be okay if I left today?
Took my chances on what you said was wrong?

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.
I'll never regret these years.

Now here i sit, so far away.
Remembering all our memories.
Its times like these that I miss you most,
Remembering when we were so close.

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, we'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.

We'll never forget the places we've been, you and i.
Our lives are slipping away.
Don't want to let time pass us by, byyyyyyy...

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years....
...spent, so faded and wreckless,
Not sorry, and I'll never regret...
I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.

Oscars

Leonardo DiCaprio wins Best Actor for "The Aviator".

Busy.

Busy with work lately.

Alot of work.

Tired now. Eyes cannot open. Tmr then blog maybe.

Mo-Blog

I now have a mobile blog. That's a blog which contains images of my daily life, taken from my tiny phone camera. Updated on a day to day basis. Register an account there to comment on my pics!

Removed the "previous entries" section on my blog to compensate for the amount of space taken up. Didnt need it anyway, had 7 days of posts on my main blog post itself... Didnt need a 10 post backdated post listing.

One year six months

Yellowcard - One year six months.

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do

One thing...

Sometimes you just don't realise the intensity of your feelings for one person until you truely exercise your beliefs and faiths onto that person. And then when it all breaks down to it, you realise all you want to do is to be with that person every single step of the way, every single move that person makes, every breath she takes. Until then you can only hope for the best, pray when you rest, and... wait. Your heart palpates with every second that you are not with her, every tear she sheds without you, every laugh that escapes from her when you're not around. What it means to everyone is a different thing, but at the very basic terms, everyone just needs a certain someone to kiss, hug, cuddle, and love. Its hard to put it to words or even a song. Sometimes that certain person is just so beautiful, you cant find the words to explain, but you just love him or her unconditionally.

Everything that you are is so divine, with the love like yours, theres no pain in this world i cant endure. Everytime i feel alone, i turn on the music, turn up our favourite song, and listen. And like the music and words, we merge into one, and play on and on. When my skies are grey, you make them clear again. When im weak you are strong. I need to hear the song, you need the words.

Damn.

Planned.

http://tricab.sirhc.net/subjectselection.html

A word of warning to all who havent decided what subs to take. Now is a good time to plan because subject selection is coming up.

Don't just take what you want, because you need to fufill certain CU requirements set by the school. As of this semester, i've completed my design electives (Basic photo, etc) and cannot take anymore or i'll overtax myself in the coming semesters.

I've cleared Semester 4 and 6 Because of Major projects and SIP, so i'll only be taking 18 CU's for both that sems, and pushing very hard with CDS's in both Semester 3 and 5. Also, i have alot of diploma electives to clear, means i'll be taking alot of IT stuff the coming years.

I've exceeded my graduation CU requirement by 1.

I Hate Fridays

Dammit, why must all holiday eve's this half of the year fall on a friday? I have no school on fridays. Damn.

Quoted from Beatrice:

• CHRISTMAS fell on a Friday.
• NEW YEAR's fell on a Friday.
• HARI RAYA is ON A FRIDAY!!
• GOOD FRIDAY is ON A FRIDAY TOO!

[Edit] Beatrice was wrong. Christmas eve and New Year's Eve fell on a friday. Hmm.

Ladies and Fellas

Its the end of the week! PARTAY.



Oh wait. Next week is submission week. -grumblemumble-

devil killing smile

Woke up, and first thing on my mind today was..

die.

9:00.

take me over, cause you know it's been a while
win me over with your devil killing smile
and soak my bones
in your overtones

These days, waking up isnt a task, its a chore. Sleeping so late at night to finish the countless assignments this week, i wonder if i'll survive this semester. Words cannot describe how much i am looking forward to the end of the week and term break.

Well. Got to school late, so i decided to skip IMDP1 and go to the darkroom instead. Christine was in there developing photos, so i decided to develop my film (night shot) there. I walked around TP and finished the roll of film. It was horrible. The shots were either blurry (i need a tripod for night shots), Underexposed (damn camera) or fungy (damn camera lens). Oh well. Hopefully i'll get all these fixed by the end of the week. Christine went back to finish her VSCP1 Box thingamajig.

and tear down my walls till the darkness shows
pull me under where the river sings my death
light a candle with your holy cigarette
come down with me
in kerosine
and walk through the flames till it burns us clean

After that had a wonderful marketing class. Me and Justin got tops once again for class. High performance team. We got the highest for class for our combined effort work. However i think i did more work =p. I crapped out all the content lor. Ah well. Our final piece will be stunning. If we don't get an A, i'll snipe off our lecturers balls off.

After that went back to the darkroom to enlarge a few photos. Alot of people were in there. Mud, Wei shan, Eunice, they were all there making prints and such. Made 3 prints, GQ playing the guitar, Dharni, Mickey, and Chris. They are drying in the dark room now. I'm going back to school tomorrow to collect them.

so won't you place your hex on me
drive the ship and ride with me
let's run away to your galaxy
where children bathe in delusion streams
drain away the poison out of me

Yes, i'm going back to school tomorrow. For what, i dont know. Going out tomorrow anyway. Can anyone lone me $20? I'm desperate. I'll return it to you next week. Haha. If you can leave me an SMS. Otherwise in the morning i'll have to dig out money somewhere. Probably out of my butt.

I cut my hair! Wow. Words cant describe it. You'll just have to see it tomorrow if you wanna see how much its changed. I cut at a different place. Just told the auntie to cut whatever she wanted, and it ended up pretty good. Now i know the difference between a $10 haircut and a $30 salon cut.

wear the letter cloth and i will drink your shame like an ocean let me
dream until i go insane until i go insane
like a shot through your brain
take a trip through your veins
until i go insane

By Sunday i'll be getting my new phone. Latest by Sunday. If not, i'll start whining and crying and not leave the house till i get my phone. I'm serious.

Sometimes, i need to scream to breathe.

Today's blog is brought to you by the word: Cynosure

Going down to my neighbourhood now to take a few photos. Night shots. Maybe take one roll. Finish christine's roll. Her roll of film .. the last what.. 15? 20? shots were screwed by my lousy shots. How nice. If you're reading this, dont kill me. I'll repay you with a roll of film =p.

Anyway. Gonna take a roll and develop it tomorrow. Experimenting with black and white night shots. This is gonna be interesting.

[edit]

Alright. Something freaky just happened. While i was taking photos around my neighbourhood and at Bishan, my nose suddenly bled. I'm serious. There was blood. Alot of it, all over my shirt and pants. Then i applied presure.. and realised the cut wasnt so bad at all. I don't even know how i got it or what. I'm sure its explainable, but it was freaky. I lost alot of blood and made my parents worry. They say they cant even see the cut wound where got so much blood.

Hmm. maybe i was taking photos then the blood all rush to my head or something.

Ok. Anyway, took alot of nice shots! One of the mrt passing and all. I have a feeling all will be screwed though. Oh well, i got 7 more TMAX rolls to spoil. =p.

Wah. Damn tired now. Talk to me on msn if you're bored. I'm damn bored too.

Morning treats.

The Ipod Shuffle

Apple has launched the Ipod Shuffle.

Better sound quality!

"Time to mix things up. Meet iPod shuffle, the unpredictable new iPod. What will it play next? Can it read your mind? Can it read your moods? Load it up. Put it on. See where it takes you. Choose from pocket-size 512MB or 1G models starting at US$99 and surprise yourself."

Oh, and this.

Teh Mac Mini

Life

sucks.

I never thought

Today is too late
how long do we have to wait
oh no, i think she knows
that's why i can't let go
i feel this burning inside
a feeling that no one should know
this could be so good again
i'd wait here till then
but not with this
so now i'll leave with

No apologies
i never thought you'd be so
easily decieved
now i'll just hang my head (falling further out of place)
along with the dead (all the lies i can't erase)

We're mad with regret
memories that we'll both forget
so far it's been so hard
to cover up these scars
i see this falling apart
it's easy to just let it go
no luck between us both
so i keep waiting
but not with this
so now i'll leave with

What's left to show
it's so bad but i got to know
what's right don't know
how to find it out on my own

I finally understand.

I finally do.

Haha. :)







K. Better stop talking like this or people will think im mad.

Just look at the ceiling!

Damn tired la.

Woke up at about 830 today. Siao liao. Went to bathe, blogged abit realising that it is all but over for me. Rushed out of house. Wanted to take a cab.. so i walked all the way to the church there. Realised too many people standing by the side of the road waiting for a cab and that i might have a better chance at getting a taxi at the taxi stand at AMK interchange. So i went there.

Worse. Had to stand and wait till about 930. Till then, i realised... All hope is gone. I was screwed. Worse thing was i was holding on to Xiao Hui's And GQ's CD's and prinouts for Digiess class. Supposed to hand in today. Lucky i boarded a cab by 935. On the way to school.. around 945.. i got an sms.

Class cancelled.

Whoo! Fuck. Waste my money. Waste my time. Luckily for some reason the taxi ride today cost so little. Hmmm. Maybe its cause the uncle went and took the PIE instead of TPE. Maybe during peak hours its less packed.

Reached school and stoned alot. Wasn't in a good mood. Xiao hui came and talked to me. Cheered me up abit.

Went for classes, IMDP1 was alright. After class.. met up with XH and Christine... talked awhile.. they were drawing. Christine said she wanted to go bugis, orchard and wherever to buy stuff. So we did. Went to bras besah first to get hinges and mirrors in art friend, then we oogled at the guitars at Swee lee. Lol. Im gonna go get guitars from there one day.

After that we made our way to orchard on bus, then we went and hung around for HMV for a LONG while. She bought POTA soundtrack and a vcd. Used vouchers.. that cheapo pixie. Lol. She hasnt changed at all.

Anyway. Went to eat after that. Had yummy yummy Yami Yoghurt at scotts. Damn nice. Peach yohgurt with Extra extra nuts!. Man. It was damn nutty. The man gave me extra nuts because only left two slices of peach. Con my money. So many nuts for what. I not enough ah.

Left after that. Oh and she got her camera back + the lens. Cool. Now i can steal her lens. Its dirty too though. Maybe i go her camera workshop and.... er... clean my lens. Maybe.

Been wanting to know my fortunes lately. Got a yearly Forecast. I'm a gemini.

OVERVIEW: As a joint financial matter finally draws to a close in winter, you're finally feeling able to turn your attention toward enjoying life -- and there'll be plenty of opportunities to do just that in February and March. From the 9th through the 15th of January, though, you may need to tie up a few loose ends, but if you can buckle down and do it, you'll reap the rewards of hard work. The full Moon of January 25th will also provide you with the inspiration to keep on going, no matter how hard your work-oriented challenges are -- and to finish up, too! For the rest of the season, you'll be able to relax and enjoy the fruits of your labors.

Your friendships and group connections may change during April, or you may be put in charge of a previously recreational situation -- but you'll just love it. Being in charge will come easily to you during May and June as well, and you'll gain new admirers and lots of new friends who can't believe you're not too good to be true.

Abrupt and sudden changes during summer may not seem to be of the long-term variety when they occur, but if you take a step back and look around, you'll realize that you're really at the beginning of a metamorphosis -- and at the end, you'll be glad for each and every event that contributed to making you 'the new you.' The full Moon of August 19th will give you a chance to express yourself in a whole new way, too. Don't let it go by without taking advantage of it.

During fall, once again, your focus will turn to relationships -- and what to do about them. Money that's owed to you may be repaid, however, and a favor you'd long forgotten about will be returned -- further proof that the good we do comes back to us tenfold. You'll also have the chance to make some extra cash and have some fun, too, so if a hobby suddenly turns into a part-time job around the holidays, make time for it.

m:robe 100

Listening to Linkin Park again. Reanimation. Now i remember why i bought the cd again. Haha.

Anyway, today was alright. This is a placeholder for the blog i'll blog later. Yup, im still alive. Blog at around 10pm.

If you hate tech stuff. Turn away now.

The techie side in me has come alive again after the realising all these cool new products. Makes me feel damn poor. Links may lead to information and/or pictures. Must see :) All links open in a new window.

The m:robe 100 - The Ipod Mini Killer. Period.
Info
Picture
Easy to use software!

The Yamaha YSP-1
This ONE speaker alone, placed one any flat surface in the room, will Emulate Dobly 5.1 Speaker surround sound in the room. That's right, no more having 5 speakers mounted on walls to enjoy 5.1 sound. 1 speaker is all you need. Won best of show.
Ooo.

HD-DVD Discs - The next standard in Optical Discs
15 or 30GB?
Pic 2

The Largest TV in the World
Nuff said.

1 Tetrabyte External HDD (Thats 1000gb my friends.)
1000 times more space than Gmail!

1GB and 2GB thumb drives. (THEIR SHINY)
They glow!

Ok, techie rant over. Back to my normal blog later.

Beautiful

Quoted from someone's blog.

what is love? is this what love is all about? all i noe is love stretches the spectrum of the human spirit, and when it hurts, it hurts everywhere. sometimes i suspect i was born to be a lone ranger, a lone wolf. i enjoy freedom, with no strings attached. i want to run wild in a large plain, like the pairies of the north americas or russia. but yet, my heart and mind bonds in one to love someone... sometimes i don't understand. but what i DO understand, is that i love this person, and want to care for her.

Without you

Clay Aiken and Kimberly Locke - Without You

Never even thought to cry
When I heard you say goodbye
Never said where you were going

There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere
And so much left unspoken

Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that i could see
Who's to blame

Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?

And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am i supposed to live my life?
Without you

Was I lost in you and me
To the point i couldn't see
That what we had was dying

Now it's all that I can do
To see photographs of you
And stop myself from crying

I should learn to live without your love
Got so many memories
But it's not enough

Without you, where do i belong?
Without you, how can i go on?
And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?

I feel helpless and, oh, so all alone
Like I've never felt before
You made me feel alive
But I don't remember what it's like anymore

Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?

Oh baby where do I belong?
Please tell how can I go on?
Without you...

Eater

Everytime i try to love someone, i end up hurting them.

Something is wrong with me.

Pics.

Hard to say...

The Used - It's hard to say (Listen if you have the mp3. Nice song.)

the singer finished singing and she's walking out
the singer sheds a tear fear of falling out
and it's hard to say how i feel today
our years gone by, and i cry

it's hard to say that i was wrong
it's hard to say i miss you
since you've been gone it's not the same

my worries weigh the world how i used to be
and everything in cold seems a plague in me
and its hard to say how i feel today
our years gone by, and i cry

it's hard to say that i was wrong
its hard to say i miss you
since you've been gone it's not the same
it's hard to say i have my tongue
it's hard to say if only
since you've been gone it's not the same

words that i fear is the lie i told a thousand times before
words that i fear is the night
but it's hard to say how i feel today
our years gone by, and i cry

it's hard to say that i was wrong
it's hard to say i miss you
since you've been gone it's not the same
it's hard to say i have my tongue
it's hard to say if only
since you've been gone i'm not the same
it's hard to say (god it's hard to say)
since you've been gone, i'm not the same

Revision

Removed the vector image from my layout. So much more composed now. So much more me.

Make me lose my breath...

Ah look my friends! Its our old friend "Teach yourself Object-Orientated Programming with Visual Basic in 21 Days!". Remember how much fun we had 3 years ago? Learning Nothing? Ah.



Ah and look! A mysterious snowman hangs in the balance of thy room! What wonderful suprises does it bring along with it? I really dont know.

Hmm. Uncovered alot of stuff this morning. I found my sister's old HiFi Set. Yes, i havent unpacked all my stuff, and its been a year. There are still boxes in my room, and i dunno whats in them totally. Weird stuff inside. Once, i found cowboy boots. Oh joy.

Soarewelostordowe.know
Whichdirectionweshould.go
Sitaroundandwaitforsomeonetotakeourhandsandleadthe.way

Causeeverydaywearegetting.older
Andeverydayweallget.colder
We'resickofwaitingforour.answers

So much more inside...

Hmm.. im damn tired now but i think im gonna blog a little.

A LITTLE.

Today went out with christine. Went to bugis at first to eat the thai food, before that i waited for her for quite abit. She came from school... so i went to the arcade for awhile. Saw that they still didnt have the new Drum Mania V machines so i decided to play anyway. 1 game. So long never play T.T

Anyway i left soon after, went to the toilet, then christine messaged. Met up for lunch at Simply Thai, some thai restaurant, and we had a thai buffet. The food was OK la.. not say that good. It was better the last time we went there. They gave us one of each dish so we didnt have to choose. 14 dishes. Eat until you siao.

After that went to City Hall and got film from Ruby with her. Ilford HP5... interesting... Its cheaper.. maybe for my leisure shots i shall use them. Shall experiment with various film and paper.

Went to watch Phantom Of The Opera at Lido after that. We watched it at the classic cinema so it was damn cool. Seats are a little squeezy though.

The movie is damn cool la. Emotional rollercoaster of a movie. One of the better films i've seen this year. Second film i've seen this year. Ok la, so the first film was Kung Fu Hustle... but i watched it twice.. second time with stanley and freddy, so... this one should be counted as the first. Good start to the new year.

Anyway. Time to sleep. Before that.. i'm gonna list out this years upcoming nice movies to look out for.

Still missed out alot of nice movies. These are the ones i've watched today (trailers).

Cars
The Weather Man
Sin City
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy
Miss Congeniality 2
Chicken Little
Pooh's Heffalump Movie
War of the Worlds
The Final Cut
Spongebob Squarepants The Movie
Son of the Mask

Theres lots more. lazy to list out.

Chatty Chatter.

I'm having so much fun reading my old chat logs. specifically of one person. I now realised after 2 years, i've completely forgotten about what i've typed before. I miss those days.

Reading those words again... kinda made my decision even stronger. Its really fun to watch what we both typed before... and the stuff we shared.

I dream...

Are you ready?

http://www.whitenoisemovie.com/

Duvet

Boa - Duvet



And you don't seem to understand

A shame you seemed an honest man

And all the fears you hold so dear

Will turn to whisper in your ear

And you know what they say might hurt you

And you know that it means so much

And you don't even feel a thing



I am falling, I am fading

I have lost it all



And you don't seem the lying kind

A shame then I can read your mind

And all the things that I read there

Candle lit smile that we both share

and you know I don't mean to hurt you

But you know that it means so much

And you don't even feel a thing



I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning

Help me to breathe

I am hurting, I have lost it all

I am losing

Help me to breathe

Nuovo

That italian btw.

Whats wrong with me? I don't know. Nothing is actually... i just... hah. Ah well. Whatever i say wont matter anyway. It's still up to you. I want to share the feelings we had again.. this time on a much deeper level than before.

Alright. Back to today's blog. I just finished abit of my work and passed the first draft to justin. He has yet to reply though. Had psychology lecture and tutorial today.. tutorial was fun. Had to memorise stuff and compare results against girls and boys. Super interesting. Lecture was damn boring though, no Jeff. Then we kept laughing because Eugene was getting irritated by this guy who had onion breath and was sitting beside him. Lol. Damn hilarious and i couldnt stop laughing until the people in front scolded me.

Skipped ComDI today. Don't ask why. Just didnt feel like it. Went out with Christine to buy materials and stuff for school. Went and discussed about the shoebox project, and a few other stuff. She bought acrylic. We went to have coffee too. I had some lame Tazo Ice Green Tea and it tasted like pure japanese drain water. Never go to starbucks again. Never.

Ok. What else to blog. Tomorrow.. TAKE MORE PICTURES AND HAVE FUN DEVELOPING. Woot.

*mental note : Bring tank, developer tomorrow, plus camera to take more pictures. And sleep tonight.*

Coco Pops.

Abel has turned nocturnal.

CAKE.

I'm having some damn nice cake now. Chocolate and Cheese.

It looks freaking disgusting and messy on my webcam, just like any good tasting cake would be.

Its crispy on the layers, and it has nuts.

Just click on my webcam for a bigger view.

Neodämmerung

I wanted to blog, then i forgot what i wanna blog about.

When i remember, i'll fill this space up =).

Spare me the details...

Site update : Updated links... now.. who did i miss? If you linked me or want me to link... please tag. =)

After reading stanley's old blogs, sorta came to a few realisations of myself.

Firstly, alot of people read my blog, and they dont comment dammit. Comment people! I wanna hear your words! Speak and ye shall receive! ....... or something gay like that.

Sometimes i wonder why i became the way i am. I'd like to thank the many positive influences in my life and thank god that i never ended up the other way around. What's the other way around?

Big time beng gangster la.

But of course, one would suspect Abel is never the type.. right?

Haha. You should read my old blogs... Sadly all my archives were wiped out last year.

Sometimes i just sit down or lie down before i go to bed and just think. Collect thoughts of the whole day, the whole year, my whole life. Sometimes its bad, sometimes it gets better. Sometimes its downright shitty.

But usually its just full of deep thought and emotions.

I remember back in primary school when i used to get bullied or picked on often. Probably because i was really annoying. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">that way. Am i alright now? Not really. Am i still waiting? Yes. I know you're reading this anyway =).

Sometimes i wonder what it feels like to feel dead... Sometimes i wonder why people have so many problems... so many worries. I wonder what it is like to be others.

I wish everyone in the world could feel happy. I only wish.





I need a girlfriend.

www.tricab.net

Decided. =).

The thing is though, however, that i wont be able to host other people's sites. I will be able to host images and such, but as for sub domain's.. i probably wont be able to handle that yet.

Firstly, i dont have enough space on the server. It'll probably only have 1.5gb. Next, it'll only allow for one sub domain and it probably wont be any other one except my blog.

Lastly... it'll be hard to configure. So until i go and buy a new computer and use the current one as an internet server, you guys who are looking to host your site on my server are probably out of luck *sorry beatrice =p*

But of course, image hosting and all can still be done.

I've decided on www.tricab.net. Don't ask why.. its probably the best solution for now. Firstly, sublife.net will probably still be left open. I don't want to open sublife.net yet.. it'll probably at a later stage of my life, when i secure my design poweress and stuff. sublife.net... probably can still happen... But maybe not yet. I'll start out with tricab.net.

Now.. all i need is a Visa/Mastercard. Or maybe i can borrow someones card and buy first. Maybe i'll ask justin.

For now, i'll have to concentrate on making the layout for tricab.net. The blog layout will still remain as you see it here, but the main site.. im keeping it under wraps. I want it to look fairly minimalistic and clean. All my artwork, photography, and other projects will be put there after im done with the layout.

When? I'm not sure. Feburary maybe? =D.

For now.... ROSE.

Drowning.

Life seems to be going back on track.. after awhile. Just completed IMD P1!

I'm in the process of conceptualizing my layout for my portfolio website. I'm also in the process of thinking of getting a VISA or a mastercard so i can go get my own domain....

What's nice?

www.tricab.net
www.abeltan.net
www.sublife.net

.coms are all taken. im thinking tricab.net.

Anyways, tomorrow is going to be full of pure shit... Digital essentials, im not prepared, but im not worried for that. IMD P1, i hope my work is up to standard. After that got psycho meeting, and once again, i'm not really that prepared with the research i got.

Hopefully things will get better. Last night went out with wei shan, joel, ben, xiao hui and a few others. We went to watch electrico perform live... it was freaking awesome.... i'll never soon forget it :D. I wanna catch their next performance too. Soon. Probably.

My wait for the phone will soon be over... or will it. It comes out this saturday. But then my mom..

After she came back from China, all she's been complaining about is money. I'll have to do alot of begging on sunday. Lol.

Oh yes. R.O.S.E online. I'm seriously addicted. I'm now level 13, and im a warrior. I usually go on channel 3. The servers are damn packed right now, and they are often full so i have to keep retrying to get in. DIE SERVERS.

This game is so fun...

That im STILL playing it. The servers are all clogged up, had to keep retrying to get in. I hope they have more servers.

Whats so nice about this game? Firstly, the graphics rock for a free game beta. This game also just began beta.. which means... everyone starts around the same level! The monsters are everywhere, not much ks-ing happening. Equipment is of a wide variation and the terms are simple and easy to understand. Not mentioning the great minimap and the great interface, save for a few typos and stuff.

If you're not playing, go download the client now! Its only 300mb ands its gonna be free for at least another one or two years! GO PLAY. www.roseon.com

Rose Online Rocks.

Seriously. Its my new addiction. Any fan of MMO should play it. I Highly recommend it even though its in beta. Yes, that means i want alot of people in TP to play it. GOGOGO :)

Two Thousand And Five.

*aherm*

Happy new year everyone. May all your wishes be fufilled this year. Or something like that.

Lets start with this morning shall we.

Took a cab down to school early this morning due to the fact that it was raining and i was bloody lazy and late, once again. Was late because i had to burn cd's (7 in total) for people and remember to bring a couple of items for people... Like the games for Eugene. After i left the house i realised my mobile phone only had one bar of battery left. Crap. Ah heck. New year what. Decided today shall be a isolated new year, with me and my friends. No outside crap.

Reached school and had lunch at the design space with all the camp design crew and student helpers along with the staff of TDS. It was a great atmosphere.. i didnt have classes, it was relaxed... It's been a long time since i felt so welcome, so relaxed by a community, what more a school! I will never regret my decision to step into TP.

After the nice lunch, and lots of crappy jokes and discussions we had, we decided to leave... for where ever we were going. We couldnt decide, and people started to get cranky. In the end, we were left with 4 people. Beatrice, Justin, Wei Shan, and I. Sounds pathetic, but we had quite abit of fun after that.

We decided to go to kallang to ice skate. For some lame reason when we got there... the whole place was like a ghost town. There was no one in sight, it was cold, rainy, and the whole place was dark. Sorta reminded me of the abandoned shopping mall in Dawn of the Dead. Super funny. After that we decided to take a cab down to tampines SAFRA to go bowling! In the end we went to play around 9 games shared among 3 people there. Damn fun. Its been a long time since i bowled, but in the end had lots of fun. We decided to go play pool after that, and we met up with GQ, Stanley and Freddy to play pool at tampines interchange.. at the pavillion...

Played awhile... kinda sucked at pool today. Don't know why. But i did. After the pavillion thing... we left for orchard. But this time.. only Me, Wei shan, Jason, Freddy and Stanley. We wanted to go there to watch movie or something. And to hang out and check out the Orchard crowd.

Oh how we would regret it later.

Anyway, we reached there, and it didnt seem so packed.. until we actually reached cineleisure. We bought tickets to watch Kung Fu Hustle AGAIN. At 1:30am. My latest movie ever... =). Another first for 2005. Anyway.... only Me, Freddy and Stanley wanted to watch. So we bought the tickets and went down to subway to munch on stuff. Decided we can do a little research here and there, since Marketing class requires us to present a proposal about merging Subway and Orange Julius. Crapped alot.

Ok... heres the fun part.

After the horrendous countdown which we spent ... doing nothing in cine. We went out. That's when the chaos started. People started running around, spraying that can crap all around us, and leaving sticky substances on everyone. It was so chaotic, if you were trying to escape from all the morons randomly spraying crap on everyone... you would slip and fall and get stamped on.

We had to bring wei shan and jason back to the mrt.. and we decided to walk to orchard mrt. bad bad bad bad move. It was so crowded, we got lost. The group splitted up. I was left with Wei Shan and the rest were one group. I decided.. we needed to retaliate against those bastards. So i picked up a can on the floor that had quite a fair bit left. And sprayed the hell out of anyone who decided to spray in my direction. On the way there, Me and freddy decided to buy FIVE cans to spray back at those idiots. We did, and we attacked the shit out of them.

I had to cover Wei shan all the way, she seemed pretty badly abused by all those (dont mind me being racist) indian people spraying for no god damned reason. You could get molested and no one would know.

But yeah. Holding two cans in hand, shaking them madly, showing them to people and telling them that if they spray you you'll spray back.. that kinda worked.

Still, by the time wei shan and jason left, leaving me stanley and freddy around to fend for ourselves, we went on an all out rampage destroying all in our path. We sprayed the heck out of anyone and anything that decided to be an asshole and spray others (playing the hero) or just spraying at those idiots who spray at us. It was.. damn fun :) But damn lame at the same time.

Hmm. After that. was damn sticky and had shit all over me.

So we decided to go home after the movie. The movie was hilarious again.. but i was falling asleep. The movie ended at 3, and i took a freaking expensive but quick cab home.

Alright. What's a new years blog without new year resolutions.

2005 RESOLUTIONS (In no particular order, and no, i might not even complete a single one, but who cares.)

• Eat More
• Sleep More
• Do more Work. Better work.
• Cut hair. Soon. Make it not as messy.
• Attempt to learn to play the guitar. Again.
• Not play so much ghost squad. Play.. DRUM MANIA V INSTEAD.
• Find a girlfriend. Hah.
• Stop doing fucking crap like this. And start doing work. SUB JULIUS DAMMIT.
• Take better photographs
• Get another distinction for one of my subjects.
• Help out as much as possible with school events. Orientation and Open House!
• Cant think of anymore.
  
  Alright. Need sleep now. Dying.
  
  
• Make sure i say happy new year to everyone.